I'm sorry Life, today I hate you.


Ida

I want you too much

One look could kill my pain.
I want to hurt you just to hear you screaming my name.
Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin.
I want to love you but I better not touch.
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop.
I want to kiss you but I want it too much.
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison.
You're poison running through my veins


Ida

I wish I could understand

It is strange how people can deside how you feel based on how you act or what you do. Like they say I can't hate school that much, "after all, you still go there every day". And I can't feel that bad, "you're happy sometimes". I wonder how those people think.
It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt just because I don't cry.

Ida

Music brings colours to the world we live in

Music makes it easier to coop with reality. It allows you to feel without thinking, without having to say something or explain it.

It's a world of its own. Although it is big, it is very personal and it means different things to different people.

It's weird but I find relief in confiding in music.

Ida

Your every wish will be done.

It's a sad situation

Sometimes you may feel like you just wanna break down and fall apart. When that happens life and things get pretty hard to deal with. Everything you do comes undone and all your insperation seems to have disappeard.

I have been feeling like this the past week. I can't put my finger on why, but I have a pretty good guess. School. I hate going there, and that is something I really don't understand. Nobody is mean and I've got decent grades, still I resent it so much. I wish someone could jump into my brain and tell my why I think it so horrible.

The funny thing is that I just hate school when I'm not there, when I'm actually there it's not so bad. But at home I just break down. I'm never far from tears and all these feelings just bubble up inside me and I feel like I've got nowhere to go.

I think I'm pretty good at hiding it. I tell people I hate school and that I'm mad, but there's few who actually now how it really is. I actually think I may be the only one. And offcourse you, my dear reader who I'm trying to explain it all to. Good luck trying to understand.

Sometimes I wonder if we all feel this way. The feeling of not beeing understod. I also wonder if we all think thar our own problems are the most vital ones, and if there's a way out of this. I have alot of questions, there's no need for me to bring them up now. They just make me confused and all twirled up inside.

It's sad, so sad.

It's a sad, sad situation.

And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad.

Ida

Love

Today I have nothing more to say than that I'm in love with Pierre.

He's pretty cool. I wish he had my number so that he could call me and ask me out on a date.

I also wish my sweet pink world would become reality sometime.

Ida

Simple Plan

Last Friday, 31, I saw Simple Plan. They were pretty damn awsome. I don't know what to say more than that. I wish I could see them every day, every hour, every minute.
But I think that's impossible, so I guess I'll have to confide in youtube. Thank you again for excisting youtube. And thank you SIMPLE PLAN for excisting.


Ida

Maybe you should pray for me

I guess there's no use, I'm screwing up every little thing I ever try to do.
I'm born to lose
God must hate me, cursed me fo eternity.
God must hate me, maybe you should pray for me.


Ida

Be my love?

If I wrote you a symphony just to say how much you mean to me, what would you do?

If I told you you were beautiful would you date me on the regular?

Now, if I wrote you a love note and made you smile with every word I wrote,

what would you do?

Would that make you want to change your scene, and wanna be the one on my team?

I can see us holding hands, walking on the beach, our toes in the sand.

I can see us on the countryside, sitting on the grass, laying side by side.

You could be my baby, you can make me your lady.

Boy, you amaze me, ain't gotta do nothing crazy.

See, all I want you to do is be my love.

Ida

This is pictures from my absolute favourite commercial. There's something about it, I can't put my finger on it. It's like magic. I'm a fan of commercials, I'm not one of those who changes the chanel or start complaining when it comes on. I actually enjoy it. But I think this is the only one that... I don't know. It has me under a spell, I think I have a crush on it. It doesn't make me wanna by the TV or whatever they are trying to sell.

It's a shame they don't show it any more, and I'd like to thank youtube for making it possible to watch it there.Thank you youtube!

It's not just the pictures that are great, the musical preformance is a class of it's own.

José Gonzáles is doing a cover on one of The Knifes songs, Heartbeat. My oppinion is that he does it 10000 times better than the original.

If you haven't seen it, I'd recommend you to do it now. You won't be sad.

Ida

I'd do anything...

Another day is going by, I'm thinking about you all the time .
But you're out there and I'm here waiting.
I wrote this letter in my head cause so many things are left unsaid.
But now you're gone and I can't think straight.
I miss you, so have no fear. I'll be here.
I'll be waiting
This could be the one last chance to make you understand and I just can't let you leave me once again!
I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms,try to make you laugh.
Some how I can't put you in the past.
I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you.
Will you remember me? Cause I know I won't forget you.
I close my eyes and all I see is you .
I close my eyes. I try to sleep. I can't forget you.
I'd do anything for you


Ida

This is not a perfect world

I never could have seen this far,

I never could have seen this coming.

It seems like my world is falling apart.

Why is everything so hard?

I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said,

they just won’t go away.

I used to think that I was strong,

until the day it all went wrong.

I think I need a miracle to make it through.

I wish that I could bring you back.

I wish that I could turn back time.

Cause I can’t let go.

Without you I just can’t find my way!

I don’t know what I should do now.

I don’t know where I should go.

I’m still here waiting for you,

I’m lost when your not around.

I need to hold on to you, I just can’t let you go!

In a perfect world this could never happen.

In a perfect world you’d still be here.

To you this means nothing.

Nothing at all.

Ida

You're toxic

Baby, can’t you see I’m falling?
A guy like you should wear a warning.
It’s dangerous.
I’m fallin’.
There’s no escape
I can’t wait, I need a hit. Baby, give me it!
You’re dangerous, I’m lovin’ it!
Too high, can’t come down.
Losing my head, spinning ‘round and ‘round.
Do you feel me now?
With a taste of your lips I'll be allright.
You're toxic I'm slipping under.
With a taste of a poison paradise, I’m addicted to you.
Don’t you know that you’re toxic?!
It's getting too late to give you up.
I took a sip from the devil's cup.
Slowly it’s taking over me
Intoxicate me now. With your lovin' now. I think I'm ready NOW!


Ida

Will you dance with me honey?

You're so hot, teasing me.

I'd like to take a chance at boy like you,

but that's something I couldn't do.

There's that look in your eyes.

You can read in my face that my feelings are driving me crazy.

Ah, but I'm only a child

You can probebly see what I want

But I'm too young to be searching for that kind of fun

So maybe I'm not the one for you

But you're so cute, I like your style

And you know what I mean when I give you a flash of my smile

But I'm only a child

Well will you dance with me honey?

And will you chat with me baby, flirt a little maybe?

I have to take it easy, better slow down now.

I'll try take it easy, try to cool down, take it nice and slow.

/Ida

Lars is my favourite

Disturbia