It's strange when something devastating happens, my whole world just fell apart and everything is wrecked. Still I feel nothing. It's like I'm numb. I can't find the right word in english, but it's just empty. It was like someone just sucked everything I feel and think right out of me, and now it's just gone.

ida

Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around, then I feel so helpless and I wanna lie like a child in your arms.

I see the look in your eyes and I just fall apart.

I really need you now tonight. I need you now more than ever.

ida

Have your diary ever got read by someone who wasn't supposed to read it? Or have something very personal that you didn't want out in the open got out there anyway? Then you know how I feel now..

I feel betrayed, exposed, vulnerable.. I feel like I've been left alone in the biggest white room you could imagine. I feel like I've been left ther naked and alone. And it hurts.

ida

I have a crush on Hugh Laurie

Hello hot guy and welcome to my "Guys-I-Wanna-Marry-List".

Some might think he's a bit too old, but I don't. And what is too old?

I don't belive in all that crap about age differens. Love has nothing to do with age, age is just a number. It's a number that shows how long you've been walking on this earth. Nothing more.

ida

The one with the bright eyes

Bright lights, big city, it was quite extraordinary. I was in perfect company, the love of a lifetime. And as I left I heard him singing "Ohhhh let the sun shine in and face it with a grin because smilers, they never loose and frowners they never win "
The one with the bright eyes, stored away in the corner of my heart.
No one will ever take that day away from me.

ida

You don't wear my chains

-"Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed.This world you must've crossed... " you said.

But you don't know me, you don't even care. You don't know me and you don't wear my chains. I think I'll go to California. I think I'll start a new life, just start it over where no one knows my name. I'll get out of Sweden, I'm tired of the weather. I'm just so tired. I think I need a new town to leave this all behind. Where no one knows my name.

ida

I never pray but tonight I'm on my knees. I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me. Let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind.

I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down. You know the one that takes you to the placeswhere all the veins meet.

ida

You swoon me like no other

I'm just a singer, you're the world. All I can bring you is the language of a lover.

ida

Thank you

Today I just wanna thank the song I'm Yours for beeing written, so actually I wanna thank Jason Mraz. Today it was my saviour and it helped me getting through the day. I just love that song. I think it's my nr.1 all-time-favourite. I don't know how many times I've heard it, not enough I belive. I don't like those people who says that "it's getting old" and "it's boring", SCREW THEM! That song will be played at my wedding and funeral, I will have it tattooed all over my body, all over your body! It will my my epigrahp, my belief!

So thank you Jason Mraz for writing such a beautiful song.
"Whatever it is you need me for, take it"




ida

Open me up and you'll see I'm a gallery of broken hearts. I'm beyond repair, so just let me be and give me back my broken parts. Just give me back my pieces. I just want to feel something today. I just want to know that maybe I will be ok .

ida

I'll sing for you

You had your name in the bright lights and you were made for the big time.
They said you're a star to be in the NME, but then the walls came tumbling down.
Will you go down on me?
I saw you practising your autograph but now no one's asked, it's such a shame that the dreams are crumbling?
To me you're a star, you're just not going very far.
But all the world will know your name and you'll be famous as you are.
'Cause I'll sing for you.

ida

I think it is time to add another guy to the "Guys-I-Wanna-Marry-List". So let me present to you Björn Gustafsson. He's the tall one with the blond wavy hair. I just love him. I mean, how can you not?

ida

I know I'm not what they call "a beauty", so if you leave me, offcours I'd understand. I mean, what have I to give you that no one else has? I'm no one special while you're amazing.

Life is a riddle, and you are it's answer. As long as you stay I don't care if the rest would disappear.
When I screw up and let you down, when I mess it all up and ruin everything, please stay. Have faith, 'cause you know no matter what happens I'll never stop loving you. You're all I've got and all I've ever asked for. Hoping, believing, wanting that you'll stay with me. That I mean to you what you mean to me. Love me, 'cause I'll never stop loving you.

ida

Lying...

... it's a funny thing. Nothing I normally do. But the other day I did. I looked into the guy's eyes and lied. It was scary, my palms got swetty and the vision all blurry. I felt as if I had a fever and I just wish I could take back what I just said. But I couldn't.

ida

M-mmm!

My company just left. We've been watching "The Pirates of the Caribbean" movies, the first and third one. All three of them are my all-time favourite movies and I can barely wait until the next one goes up on cinema.

I'm kind of proud also, I didn't fall asleep this time! Just for two seconds, then I got my self together and got all speeded up instead. I think I might be kind of enoying to watch movies with, especially when there's someone I've got a crush on in it, like Pirates. I just wish I could marry Jack Sparrow. I don't care how dirty, false, egocentric or weird he might be. He's so hot! So why God, why? Why didn't you let me live in the time when pirates were alive and current? Cause offcourse Jack Sparrow was a real person who has said and done all the things he does in the movies.........

ida

I'm watching MTV and then Coldplay's video Lost? started playing and I just got goosebumps all over and a heartache. I can't really understand that I'm going to 2 (!!!) of their shows this year. It can't be happening, it's like a dream and I'm wondering when I'm gonna wake up.

I know some people who says that it's a waste of time and money going to concerts, that it's the same as listening to it in you Ipod. I say that's bullshit! I get such a high from hearing it live, it's like bothing else. I wish everyday was a concert.

ida

Life wont wait, so I guess it's all too late

You're the only one I've waited for, there's no one else I wanted more.

You're the only one I'm aiming for, you're amazing just because you are.

I miss you more than ever.

I'll stay right here forever.

But life won't wait so I guess that it's all too late.

know your name

If it's a broken part, replace it.
If it's a broken arm then brace it.
If it's a broken heart then face it.

I hate him!

No, offcourse I dont hate him. I just hate that I love him, that's all. Right now my heart is kind of breaking and it hurts, big time. And my eyes are filling up with tears and a lump is growing in my throat.

It's kind of sad, isn't it? To fall in love with a celebrity... I don't know why it always happen to me, I guess I was born with that gene. And if you're one of those who think it can't be real love, lt me tell you something: IT IS! I'm flying just as high as anyone else when "the victim" (let's call him that - the person you're in love with) says something cute. And I promise you that my heart is breaking just as much as anyone elses when I realise that he'll never be mine.


ida

Theoretically, ain't we lucky?

No wonder I'm a one-guy-girl, you keep my heart in a jar on your nightstand.

Every notion is closer to touching.

I'm a coyote and I've got a taste for your lovin'.

Today I've been spending some time with my dear friend Malin. First we took a walk on the ice, the weather here is amazing! Then we went to her place and had some hot coco with brownies, mmm! I like beeing at Malin's, her house is so pretty, always nice and clean. And offcourse she's there ^^. I also like the fact that we are pretty strange, actually that's what I love about us.

ida

What a beautiful mess this is.

You've got the best of both worlds.

You are strong but you're needy.

Humble but you're greedy.

Though your mind is rather reckless.
And although you were biased, I love your advice.

There's no shame in being crazy.