29 september 2009

I might aswell die after that date. Nothing will ever top that, so why should I be sticking around after that?

Malin and I are going to London to see COLDPLAY! It's too good to be true, this can't be happening. Our parents actually said yes, can you belive it?! No? Neither can I.

It's so amazing. When I think about it I just wanna jump around and scream from the top of my voice. Can you understand how big this is? They are the greatest band ever. Their songs are the most beautiful ones. They are the most beautiful ones. It's unbelievable.

29.09.09.

Ida

Hopeless

Maybe if you'd just like me back?

Ida

Please?

I'll be yours.

All you have to do is somthing as simple as hold me tight.

Hold me tight and take all the pain away.

Ida

You've gotta let me know

Close your eyes. Clear your heart. Cut the cord.
Pay my respects to grace and virtue.
Send my condolences to good.
Give my regards to soul and romance,they always did the best they could.
And so long to devotion, you taught me everything I know.
Wave goodbye and wish me well.
You've got to let me go.
But you have to let me know, is your heart still beating?
Are we human? Or are we dancers?
My sign is vital. My hands are cold.
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer.
You've got to let me know.
Are we human or are we dancers?


Ida

ehm...

Okey, I don't hate them. It's just that, when it has been snowing for 2-3 days I think we all have noticed it. That was my point.

Ida

Snow is beautiful

Since it's been snowing in Sweden for the past 24-hours, every person who has a blog needs to write "If you haven't been outside yet, let me tell you a secret, it's been snowing!" or "If you didn't know there's snow out side, now you know".


I hate them. The people who writes that. I'm sorry, it's nothing personal. Or maybe it is... Anyways, we can't all be perfect, so keep thinking your'e way much more "aware" than everyone else if that makes you feel good.


Ida

The truth is messy

This is how my brain looks

Sometimes it's hard to put your thoughts in to words, it seems like they would rather stay up there in my brain makeing mess. And sometimes I try to force them out, but most of the time it doesn't work and it just gets wrong. So I let them spire up there for a while until I understand them, or until I accept that I will never understand them and then I draw a picture instead.

It is funny how our minds work. And right now when I start thinking about that, it all starts spinning up there, makeing a bigger mess than it already is. So I'll just go and draw a picture instead.

Ida

You mean everything

From the day we were born until the day we die.

My dream is a lie

I painted a picture of you. Your soul was red and your mind was blue.
This dream I had made a slave of my passion.
Reality was always too far away and sudden I faced the truth of my dream.
My love had only been a picture.
I suppose I needed it to believe.
Didn't want to see that you had never been close to me.
Reality held it's breath too long.
It's disgusting what dreams can do to you.


Ida

I'm sorry

You are the diamond that lasts forever and I just can’t take a single step without you.
To you I’ll always be a faithful lover, 'cause my heart can’t make a single beat without you.
You make me fly, you get me high.
You turn my world to such a better place
I wanna spend my nights and days between your arms
Even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lips.
Breathing your love

Ida

I wish I were 5 years old

Why isn't life like it is in the fairytails? All pink and bubbly, all the good ones survive and live happily ever after. Reality isn't like that and it sucks. Big times.

Wouln't it be awesome to have a flying carpet?

When I was younger I wanted to be Ariel, how cool wouldn't it be to have a guppy as your best friend?

Ida

I'm sorry Life, today I hate you.


Ida

I want you too much

One look could kill my pain.
I want to hurt you just to hear you screaming my name.
Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin.
I want to love you but I better not touch.
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop.
I want to kiss you but I want it too much.
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison.
You're poison running through my veins


Ida

I wish I could understand

It is strange how people can deside how you feel based on how you act or what you do. Like they say I can't hate school that much, "after all, you still go there every day". And I can't feel that bad, "you're happy sometimes". I wonder how those people think.
It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt just because I don't cry.

Ida

Music brings colours to the world we live in

Music makes it easier to coop with reality. It allows you to feel without thinking, without having to say something or explain it.

It's a world of its own. Although it is big, it is very personal and it means different things to different people.

It's weird but I find relief in confiding in music.

Ida

Your every wish will be done.

It's a sad situation

Sometimes you may feel like you just wanna break down and fall apart. When that happens life and things get pretty hard to deal with. Everything you do comes undone and all your insperation seems to have disappeard.

I have been feeling like this the past week. I can't put my finger on why, but I have a pretty good guess. School. I hate going there, and that is something I really don't understand. Nobody is mean and I've got decent grades, still I resent it so much. I wish someone could jump into my brain and tell my why I think it so horrible.

The funny thing is that I just hate school when I'm not there, when I'm actually there it's not so bad. But at home I just break down. I'm never far from tears and all these feelings just bubble up inside me and I feel like I've got nowhere to go.

I think I'm pretty good at hiding it. I tell people I hate school and that I'm mad, but there's few who actually now how it really is. I actually think I may be the only one. And offcourse you, my dear reader who I'm trying to explain it all to. Good luck trying to understand.

Sometimes I wonder if we all feel this way. The feeling of not beeing understod. I also wonder if we all think thar our own problems are the most vital ones, and if there's a way out of this. I have alot of questions, there's no need for me to bring them up now. They just make me confused and all twirled up inside.

It's sad, so sad.

It's a sad, sad situation.

And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad.

Ida

Love

Today I have nothing more to say than that I'm in love with Pierre.

He's pretty cool. I wish he had my number so that he could call me and ask me out on a date.

I also wish my sweet pink world would become reality sometime.

Ida

Simple Plan

Last Friday, 31, I saw Simple Plan. They were pretty damn awsome. I don't know what to say more than that. I wish I could see them every day, every hour, every minute.
But I think that's impossible, so I guess I'll have to confide in youtube. Thank you again for excisting youtube. And thank you SIMPLE PLAN for excisting.


Ida