30 November 2009

Why do you do this to me?

These days aren't easy like they have been once before. These days aren't easy anymore.
Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because you make it hard to breathe.
Why do you do this to me?

28 November 2009


It doesn't always kill you. But there are things worse than death.

27 November 2009

nobody. nobody. NOBODY

Everything I do feels so fucking unappreciated.

26 November 2009

guess I'll go and face all my fear

Put down your world just for one night.
Pick me again.

25 November 2009

What is really more interesting than me?

You know... If you would just like me back we'd be perfect.

You know I love you guys. More than you'll ever know.

Today's a special day. It's the first time I've listened to Coldplay since the 19th of September this year. There are no words to describe my love for them, there are no words for Chris Martin. The sadest part is that I can't listen to their music without crying. Without my heart breaking. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why I can appreciate them in a way that is just.. thankful and admiring? I want what they radiate. I want to feel that. I want to live that.

I wish I could say we're better of this way and believe it

24 November 2009

I guess for you it's not enough

We're wise beyond your years and if you could feel me heartbeat you'd know exactly where to take me.

just listen to what I've gotta say

My guess is that we'd click just perfectly.
But how can I put it into words so that you wont run away?

23 November 2009

why love, why do you have to be so unusually cruel tonight?

Up and down, back and forth, here and there. Just like a freaking rollercoaster. But I always end up smashing down hard in the ground. My feelings are confused. Or, actually it's my mind telling my heart not to feel this way and everything ends up a total mess. I just don't get why it's so hard not to bother, not to take it seriously.

All of this is just pathetic.

I dont believe that anybody feels the way I do about you

"youre too wonderful"
You must be kidding me.

22 November 2009

The city that never wakes

If you love me only in your dreams, let us sleep forever.

20 November 2009

I said wild thing

I think I love you, but I wanna know for sure. So come on and hold me tight, yeah move me. Wild thing, you make my heart sing. You make everything groovy..

19 November 2009

You're so not worth it

I don't know what happened. But I guess it's okey, I don't deserve it anyway. But thanks for making it easier for a few days.

Oh screw you!

This can't be happening, like... No, it just can't. He's on another continent, on the other side of the world. Besides, he's not even serious. Why am I just not getting it? Why can't I stop thinking about him?! I can't take this right now. I'm just too fucked up.

13 November 2009

Have you ever needen someone so bad?

Once upon a time there was a girl. She was pretty, intellegent, charming and mysterious. But she was damaged. She had bad anlage. Big dreams. Night after nigt this girl stayed up, she was sinning. Her sin was that she believed. She believed she could be different, special. She thought she could heal the damages. She had thought she could feel alive, adored and needed. But no, she had been disclaimed.

Be ready I'm comming for you

I will have many men. Yes, herds of them! Members of parliaments and hostlers. Spaniards and Aussies. Dukes in shame, kings! I shall have presidents and captains of industry, actors and gypsies. Poets and artists and men who are prepared to die just to touch the hems of my skirts. Princes! Troubadours who extol the sapphires of my eyes. And I will have jongleurs and acrobats and admirals. Yes, I will have them all!

12 November 2009

Glitter in the air

What is it that scares you? What is it that makes the hair on your arms unfix, your palms swetty and your every breath feel like a trapped animal in your chest?
Is it the dark? A passing memory of an old bedstory, creatures and beeings hiding in the shadows? Is it the wind just outside bedroom window?
Or is it something much more frightening, a monster in the dephts you've only glimpsed partially in your souls´vast dark and unknowned inner.
Whatever it is, if you want to tell me I'm hear.

08 November 2009

Show me there's a way to beat the monster

Hold me, just tell me everything’s ok. Save me, just make it go away.
Hope someone hears me tonight.


They told me you should be faithful, walk when not able and fight till the end. But I'm only human.

07 November 2009

Basically she fell for you boy...

...But she definitely got more than scraped knees.

06 November 2009

I heard of a girl

I heard of a girl, she went to school everyday sad. Her mom and dad they didn't really know. She was to embarrassed to let it show.
There was this girl on a cloudy November night, she closed her door and...

05 November 2009

All I want is for you to call

I wish I knew how to make this change, but it's impossible, I'm struggling in vain. Still there's nothing I won't do to have you next to me, so how in the world can I make you listen?!
Just give me a call babe, ok?

Everybody hates you when you're living off your rock'n'roll

Yes it shows...

It’s only fair to let you know. It's only right to let you know.
I cant live if living is without you .

with the pain you drain from love

He said 'Promise me I'm not your world'

04 November 2009

I want to do all the things I love

(especially you)

your smile...

... it could light up this whole town.