Thank you

Today I just wanna thank the song I'm Yours for beeing written, so actually I wanna thank Jason Mraz. Today it was my saviour and it helped me getting through the day. I just love that song. I think it's my nr.1 all-time-favourite. I don't know how many times I've heard it, not enough I belive. I don't like those people who says that "it's getting old" and "it's boring", SCREW THEM! That song will be played at my wedding and funeral, I will have it tattooed all over my body, all over your body! It will my my epigrahp, my belief!

So thank you Jason Mraz for writing such a beautiful song.
"Whatever it is you need me for, take it"




ida

Open me up and you'll see I'm a gallery of broken hearts. I'm beyond repair, so just let me be and give me back my broken parts. Just give me back my pieces. I just want to feel something today. I just want to know that maybe I will be ok .

ida

I'll sing for you

You had your name in the bright lights and you were made for the big time.
They said you're a star to be in the NME, but then the walls came tumbling down.
Will you go down on me?
I saw you practising your autograph but now no one's asked, it's such a shame that the dreams are crumbling?
To me you're a star, you're just not going very far.
But all the world will know your name and you'll be famous as you are.
'Cause I'll sing for you.

ida

I think it is time to add another guy to the "Guys-I-Wanna-Marry-List". So let me present to you Björn Gustafsson. He's the tall one with the blond wavy hair. I just love him. I mean, how can you not?

ida

I know I'm not what they call "a beauty", so if you leave me, offcours I'd understand. I mean, what have I to give you that no one else has? I'm no one special while you're amazing.

Life is a riddle, and you are it's answer. As long as you stay I don't care if the rest would disappear.
When I screw up and let you down, when I mess it all up and ruin everything, please stay. Have faith, 'cause you know no matter what happens I'll never stop loving you. You're all I've got and all I've ever asked for. Hoping, believing, wanting that you'll stay with me. That I mean to you what you mean to me. Love me, 'cause I'll never stop loving you.

ida

Lying...

... it's a funny thing. Nothing I normally do. But the other day I did. I looked into the guy's eyes and lied. It was scary, my palms got swetty and the vision all blurry. I felt as if I had a fever and I just wish I could take back what I just said. But I couldn't.

ida

M-mmm!

My company just left. We've been watching "The Pirates of the Caribbean" movies, the first and third one. All three of them are my all-time favourite movies and I can barely wait until the next one goes up on cinema.

I'm kind of proud also, I didn't fall asleep this time! Just for two seconds, then I got my self together and got all speeded up instead. I think I might be kind of enoying to watch movies with, especially when there's someone I've got a crush on in it, like Pirates. I just wish I could marry Jack Sparrow. I don't care how dirty, false, egocentric or weird he might be. He's so hot! So why God, why? Why didn't you let me live in the time when pirates were alive and current? Cause offcourse Jack Sparrow was a real person who has said and done all the things he does in the movies.........

ida

I'm watching MTV and then Coldplay's video Lost? started playing and I just got goosebumps all over and a heartache. I can't really understand that I'm going to 2 (!!!) of their shows this year. It can't be happening, it's like a dream and I'm wondering when I'm gonna wake up.

I know some people who says that it's a waste of time and money going to concerts, that it's the same as listening to it in you Ipod. I say that's bullshit! I get such a high from hearing it live, it's like bothing else. I wish everyday was a concert.

ida

Life wont wait, so I guess it's all too late

You're the only one I've waited for, there's no one else I wanted more.

You're the only one I'm aiming for, you're amazing just because you are.

I miss you more than ever.

I'll stay right here forever.

But life won't wait so I guess that it's all too late.

know your name

If it's a broken part, replace it.
If it's a broken arm then brace it.
If it's a broken heart then face it.

I hate him!

No, offcourse I dont hate him. I just hate that I love him, that's all. Right now my heart is kind of breaking and it hurts, big time. And my eyes are filling up with tears and a lump is growing in my throat.

It's kind of sad, isn't it? To fall in love with a celebrity... I don't know why it always happen to me, I guess I was born with that gene. And if you're one of those who think it can't be real love, lt me tell you something: IT IS! I'm flying just as high as anyone else when "the victim" (let's call him that - the person you're in love with) says something cute. And I promise you that my heart is breaking just as much as anyone elses when I realise that he'll never be mine.


ida

Theoretically, ain't we lucky?

No wonder I'm a one-guy-girl, you keep my heart in a jar on your nightstand.

Every notion is closer to touching.

I'm a coyote and I've got a taste for your lovin'.

Today I've been spending some time with my dear friend Malin. First we took a walk on the ice, the weather here is amazing! Then we went to her place and had some hot coco with brownies, mmm! I like beeing at Malin's, her house is so pretty, always nice and clean. And offcourse she's there ^^. I also like the fact that we are pretty strange, actually that's what I love about us.

ida

What a beautiful mess this is.

You've got the best of both worlds.

You are strong but you're needy.

Humble but you're greedy.

Though your mind is rather reckless.
And although you were biased, I love your advice.

There's no shame in being crazy.

Now I just cry

I can't believe you're gone.

Something in your eyes I've never seen before.

We could to be as one, we'd never be apart.

No-one ever told me life could be this sad.

I keep holding on. Can't let go.

Please let me know ...

Why does it rain?

Why does it hurt?

Please God explain 'cause I don't understand.

Love made me fly and now I just cry.

Please tell me why...

Why does it rain?

Ida

I like Christmas. Lucky me it's tomorrow! But the reason why I love it so much is because you don't have to go to school. This is like the highlight of the semester, that it's over. And actually I don't care that much about all the presents, the food or all the company. I just think all that's troublesome. I mean, offcourse it's fun getting presents, but what have I done to deserve it? And why so many? It's not fun getting something when the "givver" is feeling forced. I think gifts should be given with love and consideration, like you really want to give it away.

But don't get me wrong, I still love Christmas presents!

Ida

I knew this would happen. From the very begining I knew that this was how it was going to end.

ida

dance

as though no one is watching you

love

as though you have never been hurt

sing

as though no one can hear you

live

as though heaven is on earth

Ida

"I'm not scared of dying. I just don't want to"

Ida

Marry me? Please?

So, now it's done. It's over. And it hurts like hell.

I'm so easily effected it's ridiculous. It will seriously take about a week before I can let this go. Actually I think it's okey. I mean, you can't blame me, he is pretty unbelievably hot!

Sooo... I think he should realise he should call me right now and ask me to marry him. I mean... It's for his own good. He's be better of with a 20 years younger girl who's living in Sweden. I know it's right for him...

Ida

I'm too involved. If you jump - I jump

I recorded Titanic yesterday and now I'm watching it. I believe it's seriously one of the best movies ever made. I haven't even seen half of it and I'm already crying like a baby. But he's so beautiful, Jack Dawson. He's the reason I'm crying my heart out, he's so wonderful. Why does he have to die?!! Stupid movie.

But don't get me wrong. I still love it.

Marry me Leonardo DiCaprio?

Ida

Took 2 steps forward, ended up 30 yards back.

Somedays life just sucks. Big time. Huge time!

Ida

Exchange student

Yesterday at English class we had an exchange student for visit. His name was Harry and he comes from California.He was so hot, I think I fell in love with him. At least a little bit...

When I grow up I wanna live abroad. Maybe Austrailia or California. A friend asked me today why, and all I could say is that it seems so nice. I mean like, think about the beaches, the sea, the sun, the atmosphere. - Who wouldn't wanna live there?

Ida

Wiiiie!

Okey, I'm gonna see 2 (!!!!) Coldplay conserts next year! One in Stockholm and one in London! Isn't that amazing?! I'm so happy, words can hardly describe! That's why I'm using so many marks of exlamation!!

And yesterday Jason Mraz was preforming at the Nobel-Peace-Prize-thingy and that made me even happier! He sang I'm Yours and A Beautiful Mess. <3 I Love him so! Kind of like... Maybe... Is it even possible? What the heck, I do!

22.8.2009

19.9.2009

Ida

You say I'm crazy...

You're Oh-so charming.

Ida

What is wrong with everyone?

I wish I was older. I wish I had already graduated and was on my way to Australia, or maybe Paris, Jamaica or California. I want it so bad, like really bad! I'd give almost anything just to get out of here, out of this sucky life. It's amazing to me that the world is still spinning when everyone is either working their asses of or starving to death. Can't we just stop for a second at concentrate on beeing happy?

Normally when adults talk to me and I complain about "the system" they tell me to smile at the little things, and enjoy that. And I'm like, what the f***?! Why should I? It should be given to be able to eat every day, you shouldn't have to worry about getting killed or raped on the street or having somewhere to sleep. This world is bad. Bad, bad, bad, BAD! Everyone's talking about all the enviromental problems, I can't even understand what there is to discuss. Just turn your lights off, cook just enough food or stop driving your disgusting car if it's not necessary. Taking the bus isn't that bad and trust me, you need some fresh air so take a walk instead.

Im sick and tired of everyone complaining, including me. So stop it and do something to solve the problems instead.

Ida

Call me when you know

Is it okey feeling sad if you're getting everything you want? Like... I don't know. I get to go to London and see Coldplay, I've just got a cat and soon it's christmas. Why am I not happy?!

I wish there was a dictionary where you could look up all the answers for every single question that pops up in your head. Maybe like wikipedia, but there wouldn't be any read answers "This answer does not excist. Please try a different question". Or maybe not a dictionary, just a button where it would say "Press to solve problem".

So if someone envents this, please call me.

Thank you

Ida

You suck

What matters is getting you out of my head.

To never depend on love again.

What matters is that you see how ugly life can be.

See you hurting.

What matters is your arms around me even though I have to forget you

What matters is seeing you fall apart inside, just like I did.

Ida

Maybe if you want it really bad...?

A shot through the heart and you're to blame

Ida

It's not funny...

If this is life's way of trying to be funny, -it's not working! Seriously, why?

Why, why, why, why, why, why, WHY?!!

Obviously something went wrong with the booking of the tickets to Coldplay, and the stupid website now tell us "no"... It sucks and I'm on the edge of breaking down. But Malin tells me it's going to be allright, I hope she's right.

Seriously Life, stop it! Cut us some slack, please?

Ida