Marry me? Please?

So, now it's done. It's over. And it hurts like hell.

I'm so easily effected it's ridiculous. It will seriously take about a week before I can let this go. Actually I think it's okey. I mean, you can't blame me, he is pretty unbelievably hot!

Sooo... I think he should realise he should call me right now and ask me to marry him. I mean... It's for his own good. He's be better of with a 20 years younger girl who's living in Sweden. I know it's right for him...

Ida

I'm too involved. If you jump - I jump

I recorded Titanic yesterday and now I'm watching it. I believe it's seriously one of the best movies ever made. I haven't even seen half of it and I'm already crying like a baby. But he's so beautiful, Jack Dawson. He's the reason I'm crying my heart out, he's so wonderful. Why does he have to die?!! Stupid movie.

But don't get me wrong. I still love it.

Marry me Leonardo DiCaprio?

Ida

Took 2 steps forward, ended up 30 yards back.

Somedays life just sucks. Big time. Huge time!

Ida

Exchange student

Yesterday at English class we had an exchange student for visit. His name was Harry and he comes from California.He was so hot, I think I fell in love with him. At least a little bit...

When I grow up I wanna live abroad. Maybe Austrailia or California. A friend asked me today why, and all I could say is that it seems so nice. I mean like, think about the beaches, the sea, the sun, the atmosphere. - Who wouldn't wanna live there?

Ida

Wiiiie!

Okey, I'm gonna see 2 (!!!!) Coldplay conserts next year! One in Stockholm and one in London! Isn't that amazing?! I'm so happy, words can hardly describe! That's why I'm using so many marks of exlamation!!

And yesterday Jason Mraz was preforming at the Nobel-Peace-Prize-thingy and that made me even happier! He sang I'm Yours and A Beautiful Mess. <3 I Love him so! Kind of like... Maybe... Is it even possible? What the heck, I do!

22.8.2009

19.9.2009

Ida

You say I'm crazy...

You're Oh-so charming.

Ida

What is wrong with everyone?

I wish I was older. I wish I had already graduated and was on my way to Australia, or maybe Paris, Jamaica or California. I want it so bad, like really bad! I'd give almost anything just to get out of here, out of this sucky life. It's amazing to me that the world is still spinning when everyone is either working their asses of or starving to death. Can't we just stop for a second at concentrate on beeing happy?

Normally when adults talk to me and I complain about "the system" they tell me to smile at the little things, and enjoy that. And I'm like, what the f***?! Why should I? It should be given to be able to eat every day, you shouldn't have to worry about getting killed or raped on the street or having somewhere to sleep. This world is bad. Bad, bad, bad, BAD! Everyone's talking about all the enviromental problems, I can't even understand what there is to discuss. Just turn your lights off, cook just enough food or stop driving your disgusting car if it's not necessary. Taking the bus isn't that bad and trust me, you need some fresh air so take a walk instead.

Im sick and tired of everyone complaining, including me. So stop it and do something to solve the problems instead.

Ida

Call me when you know

Is it okey feeling sad if you're getting everything you want? Like... I don't know. I get to go to London and see Coldplay, I've just got a cat and soon it's christmas. Why am I not happy?!

I wish there was a dictionary where you could look up all the answers for every single question that pops up in your head. Maybe like wikipedia, but there wouldn't be any read answers "This answer does not excist. Please try a different question". Or maybe not a dictionary, just a button where it would say "Press to solve problem".

So if someone envents this, please call me.

Thank you

Ida

You suck

What matters is getting you out of my head.

To never depend on love again.

What matters is that you see how ugly life can be.

See you hurting.

What matters is your arms around me even though I have to forget you

What matters is seeing you fall apart inside, just like I did.

Ida

Maybe if you want it really bad...?

A shot through the heart and you're to blame

Ida

It's not funny...

If this is life's way of trying to be funny, -it's not working! Seriously, why?

Why, why, why, why, why, why, WHY?!!

Obviously something went wrong with the booking of the tickets to Coldplay, and the stupid website now tell us "no"... It sucks and I'm on the edge of breaking down. But Malin tells me it's going to be allright, I hope she's right.

Seriously Life, stop it! Cut us some slack, please?

Ida

29 september 2009

I might aswell die after that date. Nothing will ever top that, so why should I be sticking around after that?

Malin and I are going to London to see COLDPLAY! It's too good to be true, this can't be happening. Our parents actually said yes, can you belive it?! No? Neither can I.

It's so amazing. When I think about it I just wanna jump around and scream from the top of my voice. Can you understand how big this is? They are the greatest band ever. Their songs are the most beautiful ones. They are the most beautiful ones. It's unbelievable.

29.09.09.

Ida

Hopeless

Maybe if you'd just like me back?

Ida

Please?

I'll be yours.

All you have to do is somthing as simple as hold me tight.

Hold me tight and take all the pain away.

Ida

You've gotta let me know

Close your eyes. Clear your heart. Cut the cord.
Pay my respects to grace and virtue.
Send my condolences to good.
Give my regards to soul and romance,they always did the best they could.
And so long to devotion, you taught me everything I know.
Wave goodbye and wish me well.
You've got to let me go.
But you have to let me know, is your heart still beating?
Are we human? Or are we dancers?
My sign is vital. My hands are cold.
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer.
You've got to let me know.
Are we human or are we dancers?


Ida

ehm...

Okey, I don't hate them. It's just that, when it has been snowing for 2-3 days I think we all have noticed it. That was my point.

Ida

Snow is beautiful

Since it's been snowing in Sweden for the past 24-hours, every person who has a blog needs to write "If you haven't been outside yet, let me tell you a secret, it's been snowing!" or "If you didn't know there's snow out side, now you know".


I hate them. The people who writes that. I'm sorry, it's nothing personal. Or maybe it is... Anyways, we can't all be perfect, so keep thinking your'e way much more "aware" than everyone else if that makes you feel good.


Ida

The truth is messy

This is how my brain looks

Sometimes it's hard to put your thoughts in to words, it seems like they would rather stay up there in my brain makeing mess. And sometimes I try to force them out, but most of the time it doesn't work and it just gets wrong. So I let them spire up there for a while until I understand them, or until I accept that I will never understand them and then I draw a picture instead.

It is funny how our minds work. And right now when I start thinking about that, it all starts spinning up there, makeing a bigger mess than it already is. So I'll just go and draw a picture instead.

Ida

You mean everything

From the day we were born until the day we die.

My dream is a lie

I painted a picture of you. Your soul was red and your mind was blue.
This dream I had made a slave of my passion.
Reality was always too far away and sudden I faced the truth of my dream.
My love had only been a picture.
I suppose I needed it to believe.
Didn't want to see that you had never been close to me.
Reality held it's breath too long.
It's disgusting what dreams can do to you.


Ida

I'm sorry

You are the diamond that lasts forever and I just can’t take a single step without you.
To you I’ll always be a faithful lover, 'cause my heart can’t make a single beat without you.
You make me fly, you get me high.
You turn my world to such a better place
I wanna spend my nights and days between your arms
Even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lips.
Breathing your love

Ida

I wish I were 5 years old

Why isn't life like it is in the fairytails? All pink and bubbly, all the good ones survive and live happily ever after. Reality isn't like that and it sucks. Big times.

Wouln't it be awesome to have a flying carpet?

When I was younger I wanted to be Ariel, how cool wouldn't it be to have a guppy as your best friend?

Ida

I'm sorry Life, today I hate you.


Ida

I want you too much

One look could kill my pain.
I want to hurt you just to hear you screaming my name.
Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin.
I want to love you but I better not touch.
I want to hold you but my senses tell me to stop.
I want to kiss you but I want it too much.
I want to taste you but your lips are venomous poison.
You're poison running through my veins


Ida

I wish I could understand

It is strange how people can deside how you feel based on how you act or what you do. Like they say I can't hate school that much, "after all, you still go there every day". And I can't feel that bad, "you're happy sometimes". I wonder how those people think.
It doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt just because I don't cry.

Ida

Music brings colours to the world we live in

Music makes it easier to coop with reality. It allows you to feel without thinking, without having to say something or explain it.

It's a world of its own. Although it is big, it is very personal and it means different things to different people.

It's weird but I find relief in confiding in music.

Ida

Your every wish will be done.

It's a sad situation

Sometimes you may feel like you just wanna break down and fall apart. When that happens life and things get pretty hard to deal with. Everything you do comes undone and all your insperation seems to have disappeard.

I have been feeling like this the past week. I can't put my finger on why, but I have a pretty good guess. School. I hate going there, and that is something I really don't understand. Nobody is mean and I've got decent grades, still I resent it so much. I wish someone could jump into my brain and tell my why I think it so horrible.

The funny thing is that I just hate school when I'm not there, when I'm actually there it's not so bad. But at home I just break down. I'm never far from tears and all these feelings just bubble up inside me and I feel like I've got nowhere to go.

I think I'm pretty good at hiding it. I tell people I hate school and that I'm mad, but there's few who actually now how it really is. I actually think I may be the only one. And offcourse you, my dear reader who I'm trying to explain it all to. Good luck trying to understand.

Sometimes I wonder if we all feel this way. The feeling of not beeing understod. I also wonder if we all think thar our own problems are the most vital ones, and if there's a way out of this. I have alot of questions, there's no need for me to bring them up now. They just make me confused and all twirled up inside.

It's sad, so sad.

It's a sad, sad situation.

And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad.

Ida

Love

Today I have nothing more to say than that I'm in love with Pierre.

He's pretty cool. I wish he had my number so that he could call me and ask me out on a date.

I also wish my sweet pink world would become reality sometime.

Ida

Simple Plan

Last Friday, 31, I saw Simple Plan. They were pretty damn awsome. I don't know what to say more than that. I wish I could see them every day, every hour, every minute.
But I think that's impossible, so I guess I'll have to confide in youtube. Thank you again for excisting youtube. And thank you SIMPLE PLAN for excisting.


Ida